Saturday, September 6, 2014

what love is and what it isn't

I recently came across this video. Let's watch it first and then you can stick around to read what I think... or you can just watch it and leave. Either way is fine, it's your choice.
 
[embed]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9YTTT_NJQeo#t=99[/embed]


The video came with an article and here it is. TL;DR, the article argues that what is described in the video is what the essence of love is in a nutshell or what a relationship is in a nutshell- being comfortable enough to fart/piss/poop in front of each other. Now, call me old fashioned and call me whatever you like but my answer is a sound NOPE.



Now, unarguably the most important thing on and in this world is love. That is because love is hard to find especially in this day and age. Or in any day and age. That's why love is right up there with (world) peace in any pageant girl's answer and it's everyone's aspiration in life. It doesn't get any more serious than pageants and life. So, I guess we can agree that love is something of an ideal, of a life goal for the most part and for the most of us. I dare to say that it's most God like we gonna ever get- to love another human being more than we love ourselves. It takes balls and boobs to do just that. Surrendering oneself to another is a huge risk and a huge accomplishment. You basically level-up from there.

Now that we have established the meaning and the importance of love in society and this planet we have no choice, in short*  but to call home I would like to argue why this is most defiantly NOT the indicator if you should continue or dismantle your current relationship.

On the serious side, I'm upset that someone is actually reducing something so powerful and rare, I dare saying divine to fecal matter, piss and fart jokes. I really am not missing a funny bone I'm simply sick and tired of people looking at things from a very mundane, very "precious bodily fluids" point of view. Reducing and degrading an life changing endeavour such as loving and staying in a relationship to such an ugly and nasty thing is completely wrong way of looking at love.

It actually is about how we fall into each other's arms, how we kiss, how we do all the little things that people find obnoxious but secretly wish they were happening to them.

I ask you, why the hell do we have the need to reduce everything important to the level of excretion of feces, gasses or piss? Is that the only level we can come up with? Are we afraid of the seriousness of the situation? Is THIS the way of coping with one of the most profound change in our lives, the sudden realisation that another has most of us now?

I understand the argument is about how comfortable we are around each other, but isn't that given?
I ask you, which part of the love/relationship thing would you rather:
A. Sensual and gentle moments of falling into each other's arms
or
B. Being comfortable to piss, fart and poop around each other.

/catatonic reality

Sunday, May 18, 2014

How I: became vegan

I think it had something to do with me turning 30. Everything suddenly changed since stepped into my 4th decade being alive. I want to believe that it's purely a psychological thing but sings are pointing to different places. 

Where I used to live, my parent farmed chicken and they were growing their own vegetables. I would rarely drink milk for one reason- my stomach would get upset and I didn't like that sensation. To avoid discomfort is my motto. 
Now, as I said I recently turned 30 and things just started coming my way. I started having these insanely vivid and strong clarity visions. Whether they were just coming to me as some natural chemical balance in my brain or they would be coming through different mediums. The one that actually pushed me off the clif when it comes to being a omnivore or herbivore was youtube.
One night I couldn't sleep and I saw this video on yt that was "recommended". It was on some negative effects of milk on your body. I knew a long time ago that after the normal milk drinking age limit, there's no point for any mammal to drink milk, let alone milk from a different animal.
As the video progressed there were images that shook my ground. I'm a huge animal lover and I hate animal cruelty. My body pains and my brain just explodes when seeing animals suffering. I have more empathy towards animals than humans. I don't know how to feel about this but it is what it is. 
The image that just turned me around was the image of a farmer killing in cold blood a little new-born calf right in front of its mother. Fine, I can understand that you want to euthanise the animal if it's sick but then you don't do it in front of its mother and not by viciously stomping on its head. 
That was it. 
I didn't throw out any meat that I had in the freezer for the reason that my boyfriend is still an omnivore and that other people still want to eat meat.
That's fine with me. Morally, I cannot allow myself to do it any more. I'm not judging you if you can, that's your business. 
The next day I went to shop for my new life(style). I'm still figuring it out but I'm getting there. 









Sunday, May 11, 2014

How I: started paying for apps and extentions

Living with a professional coder, a very dedicated software engineer, can be demanding on a soul. It's hard to let them be in their zone when all you want to do is touch their genius, because that's the thing that you love most about them. He had me at C#.

So, living with a software engineer, watching him sit in front of the computer the whole day, de-bugging, fixing stuff that I know nothing about has made me appreciate all the apps and extensions that I use on my Chrome, Android and all these fancy things that I adore. 
I know the work that goes into it. I don't necessarily understand it but I see the sacrifices that come with it, frustration, desperation but eventually always victory. 

I used to think that the world is mine for taking, I was entitled to have it all handed to me. Why should I pay? A small app doesn't look that impressive but if you stop for a minute and realise how many keyboard strokes, lines written, strategies thought out went into it you'll soon find yourself in a world that you, an average user, can't even come close to understand.

If you see something that you like and it's free, install it. If what you saw you liked and installed actually works and it works really well, then do reward the creator. It's not an easy job, trust me. Find a way to contribute as much as you can!

-Schrödinger's meow



Friday, October 14, 2011

...toliko toga


...proslo je izvestan broj meseci i tokom tog izvesnog broja meseci su se izdesavale neke izvesne, veoma bitne stvari... za pocetak, sve sto sam znala ispostavilo se da zapravo ne znam... zapravo, nije da nisam znala, nije da je to sto sam znala bilo pogresno nego je to sto sam znala bilo nedovoljno... nije bilo dovoljno osvetljeno, znanje nije imalo dovoljno svetla... bilo je isuvise senki da bih jasno mogla da razaznam sta jeste a sta nije, i cak i ono sto jeste kako jeste i kako nije... a ono sto nije, postalo je jasnije i sada zaista vise nije... sada je u potpunom nistavilu... kao nistavnom nista... najzad...
...a ono sto jeste, jeste u svom najlepsem i najboljem izdanju... za sada... kako se svetlost priblizava i kako svetlost pocinje da odagnava mrak i senke, tako i sve ono sto treba da bude dobro postaje sve bolje, zato je ono "za sada"...
...mnogo puta sam na sebe gledala kao na jedan veliki emotivni potencijal koji je u potpunosti neiskoristen... potrebno je "samo" da se prvi luchonosha pojavi... da raspiri vatru i da prihvati pozar koji je prouzrokovao...

...nije MOJ luchonosha jer svetli tolikom svetloscu da moze da raspiri vatru u bilo cemu... gracioznost i ponos, predanost i potpuna poniznost su atomi njegove svetlosti... i ja se klanjam pred takvom svetloscu ne pitajuci se vise cime sam ovo zasluzila, vec pitajuci se kako ovo mogu da nadmasim, da svu upijenu svetlost uzvratim, da sve ono sto uzmem ili primim vratim kao poklon...
...trudim se jer svetlost je oduvek gde sam stajala od koje sam na kratko zalutala... ali svetlost me je ponovo dozvala... srecom, cula sam njen glas... njegov glas... i vratila sam se... malo isprljana senkama... medjutim, svetlost je uvek najbolje umela da me umije, da me vrati u svoje okrilje...

...svetlost vise nikada necu napustiti...




The God-bearer, the Man of Light, Emmet Fox's Wonder Child
in its luminous etheric body, Richmond Walker's Divine Self which
shines with light inside the soul